To understand what I am going through right now, imagine you are in my place... Imagine a life where you have always hated some specific type of people... let's call them 'X'... The more X's you meet, the more you hate them...
To be clear - X's here is not for any community/caste/religion/gender or any such group... X here represents 'a person having some peculiar and annoying habit or behaviour'. Let's call this habit/behaviour - 'Xness'.
That said, I will move on with the post.
So, imagine you hate X's and the more you meet them, the more you hate them...
Now... you have always wondered, what an X would feel when he finds out he is such an X? How do these X's feel about themselves? How do they sleep at night? Etc. etc...
And after having so much hatred for X's, what if, one day you realize that you, yourself, are an X... Then with time, you realize that you are not just an ordinary X, but you are such a big X, that if the X's community found out about you, they would make you their King...
So Mr. King X... What how do you feel now? Can you change that, can you not change that... Time will tell... but one thing is sure... You are going to have the answers of some your previous questions (underlined above)...
How would you feel then? Would you want to to change yourself? Or would you, with time, start to empathize with these Xs?
P.S. Sorry to those people whom I have hurt by being such an X... Sorry is not enough, but what's done is done... I am working to improve myself...
P.S. again... Please don't wander you thought... The Xness for me is the habit of people to force their opinions upon others... But it can be anything for anybody...
